Naturally Jenn

The Cake Mom

That is me!  After this baby is born, I am going to be trying to start my cake business!  I can’t wait!  Over the last few years cake has really become something I love!  Here is my blog:

http://www.thecakemom.wordpress.com

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Ugh, update

Well I found a Midwife for the area, but my husband won’t agree to a home birth.  What a bummer.  It’s not even his body.  Anyway.  I am still doing my birthing research nonetheless.  Right now I am reading a book called “Pushed: The Painful Truth About Childbirth and Modern Maternity Care.” By Jennifer Block.  It is great so far, and very eye-opening.  I think every woman should do her research before giving birth.  Doctor’s and hospitals are only in it for the money, so you need to be informed and protect yourself, your body, and your baby.  I wish I had done my research the first two times and been more informed.  Then maybe it would have been less scary the first time, when I thought I had to stay in bed and needed pain medications.

Jenn

Ugh!

I really just need to rant.  I cannot believe that there are no mid-wives in the area!  I’ve been reading up on home births and they just sound so much more peaceful.  I would really like one, but I do not even have the option!  I also wanted to have a water birth, and got all my hopes up because my hospital supposedly offers “Hydrotherapy”, but upon visiting their birthing area, I found that is not the case.  They didn’t even know what I was talking about, and it was in their booklets and on their website!  How sad.  They do have tubs that you can sit in, but only until your water breaks, unless your Dr. doesn’t care.  What does it matter if he cares, it’s not his body!  I would also like to see my child after he is born longer than 10 seconds.  With both my past deliveries they were both yanked away, and then I was told they had to be taken to the nursery. With my daughter they thought her heart was beating funny, which they didn’t even tell me, and with my son they thought he had swallowed meconium.  Both were false alarms, and I didn’t see either one of them for hours afterward.  Well, let me just say it isn’t happening this time!  I will stay home if I have to and deliver it myself, but no one is telling me how and when to do things this time around.  I don’t want any of their medications either.  I know it’s painful, but there was something about feeling every pain that made it so much better, and also helped me bond better to my baby.  With my first birth I had an epidural so I felt nothing, and when she came out and they put her up on my chest I honestly felt nothing.  No emotions.  It was just like someone handed me their baby.  It took me a full day before I felt any attachment to her.  Since watching “The Business of Being Born”, I’ve realized that all those pain relieving drugs and other drugs that I didn’t have, like pitocin, can keep you from really truly bonding with your child.  Sorry if that makes me sound like a bad mother, but I’m not and I can’t help what the truth is.  I’m also not sure if I will even make the almost 35-45 minute drive to the hospital, and I’m not having a baby in a van on the side of the road, and I’m not ruining my new leather (LOL).  I think my last birth from start to finish maybe lasted an hour.  20 minutes after getting to the hospital he was born.  I’ve read since then that people who do that usually keep having fast births and the next one could be even faster.  And I wouldn’t even take my dying dog to the hospital here in town, so if I feel pains I will stay home.  How hard can it be?  I am married to a nurse, haha!

Inspiration, and Yes This is Completely Random.

I make my own cleaners from vinegar.  Sunday night I went to the store and bought a bottle of Clorox Cleanup for the bathrooms.  Something about cleaning a bathroom with vinegar that just doesn’t sit right.  But anyway, it inspired me when I came home at 10:00 p.m. to start cleaning the house at 10:30 and I didn’t stop until 3 a.m.!  Yes, I know.  But I got so much done.  And it is now thursday and I have managed to keep it clean.  Really the only thing lacking is dusting.  What’s the point?  It always comes back in 30 minutes and within the week needs done again.  I guess to get the last 2 months layer off would be nice.  I’ve heard all kinds of bad things live in dust.  Who knows.  Get this, my laundry hamper in the laundry room is EMPTY!  YES!  I have started consolidating towels from both bathrooms to make one load, then wash the clothing separately.  I am slightly behind in folding, but we had to make cookies tonight.  The unfolded clothes will be there tomorrow!

Psalm 139

O lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thought afar off.

Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways.

For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O LORD, thou knowest it altogether.

Thou hast beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it.

Whither shall I go from thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from thy presence?

If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there.

If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea;

Even there shall thy hand lead me, and thy right hand shall hold me.

If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.

Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.

I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.

My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.

Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!

If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

Surely thou wilt slay the wicked, O God: depart from me therefore, ye bloody men.

For they speak against thee wickedly, and thine enemies take thy name in vain.

Do not I hate them, O LORD, that hate thee? and am not I grieved with those that rise up against thee?

I hate them with perfect hatred: I count them mine enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:

And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.